A few weeks ago on a flight from Detroit to Seattle, I sat next to a university professor. We started talking and as you can imagine, on a hour flight, we covered many topics including education, politics, the economy, etc. As we learned more about each other, he fell into the role of "father figure," and started giving me advice for steps I should take to protect myself and family in coming uncertain times. His biggest push was that I should go back to a job working for the school district (I used be a School Counselor) so I have security, benefits and stability in the tough times ahead. I left the airport feeling sapped.
Throughout my life, I have always thought that I was impulsive, forgetful, even flaky. Lately in my quest for heightened self awareness I realized that my successes have been based on my trusting my intuition and awareness of energy around me. Right now, the path I am moving down intuitively feels right, exciting and like it will lead to something bigger. Maybe I will eventually go back to school counseling. I am resourceful and have enough sense to do the right thing should the need arise. I'm tired of others telling me that I am too idealistic or too enthusiastic or if you can believe it, too passionate!
I shared some of my more practical concerns with my brother, wanting to see if I needed a wake up call. I've been so incredibly excited about the new information I'm gathering and the people I am meeting and the world of social media. It speaks to me. It allows me to be myself and more "out there" than I've ever been before. When I feel passionate and excited about something, I tend to become obsessed and want to spend 100% of my time pursuing that passion. With me the sparks go in many directions and I can finally see the potential to bring all of them together in my pursuit of this "bigger vision" which includes empowerment, reaching out, sharing, listening, receiving, giving, being helpful, etc.
My wonderful brother called me 3 hours later because he had been thinking about what I'd said about being practical and getting a "secure" job and narrowing my goals and objectives to eliminate the parts that may not be profitable. His thoughts were that I am deliberately moving forward using my intuition, passion and guidance from many forward thinkers and my intuition has never been wrong before. He said that it seemed to him that instead of focusing on being "practical" based on a "fear" of what may happen in the economy, I should continue to pursue a passion and trust the excitement and electricity I feel about learning, evolving and acting. I am resourceful and creative. Now this does not mean being careless and unprepared. I have taken steps like hiring a financial advisor, consulting with my more organized "virgo" friends for guidance and have been reading and listening to books and blog posts that will help me maximize my productivity and organization.
My thing is not to willy nilly allow myself to jump on and irresponsibly obsess on the first creative spark that excites me, but move forward deliberately, trusting myself and putting myself out there authentically. If the need arises for me to secure something more grounded like my school district job, I'll trust myself to know when and act. For now, I choose to see beauty and possibility on the horizon and I'm going to run toward it!